Mental Health During the Holidays: What I really think of Christmas

You may have gathered by now that I am a tiny bit of obsessed with Christmas, after all it’s the most wonderful time of the year! I’m known by my friends and family as ‘Mrs Christmas’ and I go all out trying to make the season magical for all involved. But this year more than ever, I’m thinking why? Don’t get me wrong, I love my traditions, I love embracing the season and taking part in festivities, but I find myself stressing when things aren’t perfect.

Let’s take the tree for example. In our house, the tree is my job and quite frankly I wouldn’t want it any other way. You can imagine the picture perfect scenario; Christmas music playing, the entire family wearing matching jumpers, all sharing a laugh or two. However, I usually end up stressed to the max! I worry that certain baubles can’t be next to each other, that the lights aren’t spread out enough, or there are too many gaps! I usually get frustrated and spend the rest of the evening in a fluster and hating myself for not having the most perfect tree.

This year I had the idea of wrapping all my presents in gift boxes so they would look amazing underneath the tree. I was once again stressed when I couldn’t find boxes that would fit the presents that I got. I was going mad running around town trying to find certain sizes of boxes and ended up spending £6 on a box!  A BOX! Nothing fancy, literally a blue box that the recipient (my Dad) will most likely throw away. But the fact I couldn’t find a box literally made me anxious which sounds utterly ridiculous. A box is NOT essential to a happy Christmas. It does not make the present anymore special. I’m literally wasting money on things that won’t make the slightest bit of difference at all, just because I wanted my wrapping to look the best.

So why am I fussing so much? I can’t achieve perfection but surely I can still enjoy Christmas? The funny thing is, I’m the only one putting this pressure on myself. No one else in my family care if their present has the perfect bow, or if the decoration hanging on the wall is slightly wonky, so why should I? I am always going to be the person who is overly extra at Christmas and there is nothing wrong with that (what the hell am I going to be like when I have kids?!) but I shouldn’t let it ruin my Christmas. I basically need to chill the hell out and enjoy the festive moments!

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